How many are walking around today who look perfectly normal? How many appear to have it all together when their internal world is falling apart? You would be surprised. Many are probably surprised at this post. I have shared in parts about my struggle with mental health issues before, but never to this degree. I hope that someone is encouraged that even though it can take a while, the pain does end.
Of course, it was still going to be a while before I would see some real progress in my healing journey. My mind, at this point, felt like it was being eaten alive by rats and like they were gnawing at my brain. I so desperately wanted relief.
What tools are you using in fighting your experience with mental health? Do you have someone or people in your life to confide in with your battle?
All of a sudden, I became afraid to make the next move. All of a sudden, I became afraid to make the wrong move. I had these thoughts in my mind that said, “What if I am outside of God’s will if I apply to this job? What if I am outside of the will of God if I apply to that job? What if, what if, what if…”Have you been there? Do you struggle with excessive, compulsive thoughts that have no rhyme, reason or even logic to them?
My old roommate and I took a bike ride in Peninsula last week. For the uninformed Peninsula is about 20 minutes south of Cleveland. I had never visited there prior to and it was cool to do a little road trip in the middle of the week. We intended on renting bikes and catching the… Continue reading The Path
This weekend has been full as they normally are. I met with my brothers who I share tender memories with of hitting the streets with the gospel when we were young and full of zeal. The only female surrounded by guys, I was just as bold and fearless. Those were fond days with night long fellowship,… Continue reading More Than A Conqueror
This weekend I celebrated the release of my 2nd book How To Overcome Heartbreak: Stories That Heal. It took me exactly 9 months to start this book project and publish it. That’s probably pretty quick for most but that was the gift God has offered me in this season. I have the gift of TIME.… Continue reading Gifts, Parties & Sacrifice
Can I share something with you? I tend to get “stuck”. This is something I didn’t realize about myself until this season but it’s true. I get stuck on songs. My roommate can attest to this as I will put a song on repeat in a minute! I LOVE listening to the same song over… Continue reading Learning Resilience, Getting Unstuck
If there is one character in the Bible I never wanted to relate to it is Job. I mean seriously, that man went through everything under the sun! He lost it all and then had the nerve to worship right after he did! Talk about FAITHFUL. I have said I wanted my life partner to… Continue reading The Job Season
I shared my testimony last night with my new friend. I told her how I had different plans for my life and how at every turn I was asked to give up those plans. At the time it caused me great pain. I could not see what God was protecting me from. I only saw… Continue reading The Lord is GOOD!
This morning I went for a run. Not just any run. THE run. A few years ago I would run all the time. I trained for and ran a half marathon and it was pretty much the culmination of my “running career”. In that season it was typical for me to work all day, go… Continue reading Running the Distance