This weekend I celebrated the release of my 2nd book How To Overcome Heartbreak: Stories That Heal. It took me exactly 9 months to start this book project and publish it. That’s probably pretty quick for most but that was the gift God has offered me in this season.
I have the gift of TIME.
The most touching moment of the party was sitting in a small group discussing the topics that I now am so passionate about: healing from emotional pain, walking out extended singleness and preparing for a healthy relationship. In the midst of me sharing my testimony on these areas I said that God had made His promise clear to me, however He did not reveal that I would need to be transformed to receive that promise. After my sharing an older woman in the faith said she heard the word “transparent”. I needed to be more transparent to receive the person…I felt that meant I needed to be more humble.
Sharing such intimate parts of my story always humbles me and really it is only my desire to please the Father and help heal others that motivates me.
I’ve been thinking a lot about Yeshua in the garden. That time was such a picture of His humility. He left glory and perfection to experience a darkness I can’t imagine.
And He did it for us.
Now as I walk out my own journey I relate to His suffering. Though mine could never compare to His I know it is meaningful because it is my whole heart that I have given Him. It is the very depths of me that I have offered.
I am surrounded by the faithful. I have sisters and brothers who understand the deep and the level of sacrifice He has called us to. That is another gift I have in this season:
I have community.
I can say this road is not easy. There are many hard days and even hard seasons. Just yesterday I shed tears on a call with a woman I’ve trusted for the last 15 years. I shared about my deep desires and awaiting the fruit I felt I was called to. But I guess that is the beauty in this life: in the midst of the tears there is love. There are these people who God deeply values and who deeply value me who are rooting me on and listening quietly as I pour out my pain.
There is both loss and fullness on this path and often I feel them at the same time.
There is His hand weaving a story I never could have fathomed.
And then there is me, imitating the Author of life and putting my hand to the keys of a computer to do the same.
Like Father, like daughter.
I hope He is pleased.