I am in awe that my whole writing career started out with a blog. This blog. One blog that I only started because I was reading blogs. One blog that birthed out a blog post about heartbreak, which led to two more books about heartbreak, which led to me being a fiction writer, a host of podcast interviews and my very first TV interview! My God.
I finally realized one day that the question I kept asking, “What is my purpose?” was already answered. This happened when I found myself engaging within a community of people who were on a similar mission. Like minded, driven, young, passionate people, pursuing small business. Pursuing purpose. They were building something, creating something out of nothing, and transforming their communities in the process.
At that time, I was also still doing a lot of my workouts, thinking that I was doing less than my normal, so I was good right? Wrong. If anything I was making matters worse by slapping on my ace bandage before lifting my weights. In hindsight, I can see that my “just push through” mentality was surfacing, and so I did what came natural. But what comes “natural: isn’t always the healthiest decision. I’m learning..
The truth is, this experience of entrepreneurship causes me to be on my knees. I have to be in tune with the Holy Spirit for His plan and strategy for my life. And I have to believe that there is fruit on the other side of the pruning, sewing and investing that will eventually match my faith journey. Because I have yet to see that, and I have been deeply hurt by the wait.
I’ve been pretty vocal about my feelings in this season of “recovery”. I know the Father sees it as recovery though for me it has just felt sad. Lots of negative emotions have been my experience (loneliness, broken heartedness, anxiety) and that was precisely why I ran as hard as I could away from the… Continue reading Thank You Tiffany
Last night I had my second speaking engagement and it went so well! The whole process of me receiving this opportunity was so unexpected that I can’t help but see God’s hand in it. While I was unemployed last year I worked filing individual tax returns during the tax season. One day a client came… Continue reading Jesus Started With Twelve
This week will be one month since the lay off. It has flown by. My how I have grown! 8 years ago when I faced unemployment I was ready to cash out my savings from fear that God would not provide and everyday that eeked by felt like eternity. I was so stressed I lost… Continue reading One Month In
I was asked recently if I would prefer to be a full time writer. I toiled over that question for about 24 hours and came to the conclusion that “No, I would not want to be a full time writer”. No diss to all the writers out there, it’s just that I realize I am… Continue reading A New Perspective
This weekend I spent time catching up with a good friend. She is a wife, mother of 4, works and is studying to be a nurse. Talk about a full plate! Our lives could not be more different and I think part of the gift of our friendship is the pleasure we take in that… Continue reading Thoughts on Being a Writer
Last night, as the wine flowed, ice-cream digested and sleepiness kicked in, my friends and I engaged in a fairly humorous discussion…what makes one an introvert? My friend who is the epitome of the-life-of-the-party, social butterfly, stereotypical extrovert is now dating a reclusive, home-body, super introvert. And she credits ME for helping her to relate… Continue reading The Introverted Extrovert