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The Process


Definition of process: a series of actions or steps taken in order to achieve a particular end.

Yesterday at fellowship (our weekly spiritual gathering) my pastor asked what the definition of process was. It is discussed in our latest lesson and the first word that came to me was “stages”. “It’s developmental stages,” I said. He nodded his head in fond agreement–because he is more of a father than a pastor–and proceeded to read the real definition (listed above). I  was close. We talked about the “means” of a process being a vehicle and it’s pretty clear to me God has used and continues to use processes in my life (and I’m sure in yours) to bring about an intended purpose.

Every month I go through a process at work. For almost a year now I have been battling in this process. It has been so intense it has felt like labor. But my personality is one that loves a good challenge so even though I get stressed out and overwhelmed I strive to complete the process. And do better next time. If you’ve read this blog for any amount of significant time you know my career has always been a process. Doors do not open easily and usually only after a lengthy waiting period. As a result I’ve probably valued them (open doors) a little more than I would have otherwise (and even do I dare to say a little more than those who get opportunities easily.) So I have tried and tried to endure this process and achieve success by my own terms. Not in comparison to someone else’s ability (who would probably find my process less difficult) but in comparison to my former self.

Then there is the process of my love life. Again, lots of waiting. I shared with my pastors yesterday my frustration/anger at the process. They nodded in understanding. They are good people. They have walked with God over 40 years and still are able to empathize with my little struggles.

I don’t know what my future holds concerning these current processes, I only know the Father has been faithful to order my steps. He knows me through and through. 

I trust Him to have mercy where I need mercy and grace where I need grace.

In other news, some good times lately…


Shalom.

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These Things Take Time

As many of you know I finally have an open door in my career (hallelujiah). That open door did not look at ALL the way I expected it to and yet it still met so many desires of my heart! For years I wondered about my calling in business, particularly Accounting. My past is laced with insecurity, doubt and even trauma when it comes to crunching numbers 😫. It took a huge leap of faith for me to get an advanced degree in this field but leap I did! As a result I fully expected the outcome to be an overflow! I fully expected the doors to FLY open with promotions and financial reward! Instead they were firmly shut (womp womp).

For 3 years. 

3 long years. And in their place was humility, and waiting, and grace. A lot of grace. But also in their place was a blog—this blog to be exact! And, oh yeah, a book. 

This book to be exact!😉 So looking back I can see the intent and why God (once again) wanted me to wait. I can see His hand weaving and working and creating a story where the protagonist doesn’t soar her way to the top. Instead she slowly, painfully, relies on Him to get her there.

These last 3 months I have worked long and hard to get my boss’ books together. It has been a tedious task and yet I have loved every minute of it because I was FINALLY getting the experience I craved. But that goal of reconciling the numbers was ever before me and even seemed distant at times. Then all of a sudden yesterday, I reached it. It happened so quietly that I almost missed it! I had to say, “Nicole, you’re there. This is it!” 

My boss shared this week he was hoping to have this done sooner and I too agreed. But in our discussion I realized that some things take time. They take time because of the work involved. When things are underdeveloped or overlooked the one in charge has to work hard to get them together.

God is working hard on me. On us. There are areas of our lives we have been ignorant of but He has seen it all, and He has set out to complete that work, no matter how long it takes!

And when He does there will be a sweet satisfaction in knowing you endured the process and that you made it through exactly the way He wanted you to!  Not necessarily the way you envisioned–but the way He did.

This is me working on my new book project!  
SHALOM

Corporate Soul Winner

10 years ago I learned a valuable lesson in my career. I learned that God will not just put me anywhere. An open door in my career meant a spiritual assignment from Him. That spiritual assignment was also 2 fold:

1. It was to shape me into His image

2. It was to win souls to Him.

The first assignment was in such an unhealthy environment that He pre-warned me about it by giving me a dream. He also had me waiting in so much anticipation beforehand I was extra grateful for the work opportunity!  Even still, my gratefuleness lasted all but 3 months and I was soon petitioning Him for a QUICK release! The things I experienced at that place of unemployment were unheard of in a corporate setting but I endured and there was purpose there.

The 2nd assignment was “the reward”but first I had to face some spiritual warfare before that door opened. God fought for me, used it to develop me and still gave me His promise. But even in the promise land there is testing and 5 years later I moved into another testing period. Then after 3 years I overcame this test and was released (thank You Lord).  I had completed another assignment which resulted in both my own transformation and an addition of souls to the kingdom.

And now I am at my 3rd assignment. This assignment reminds me more of the first. Instead of savvy businessmen and woman I’m working with a different social class. Some have felonies, different baby daddies, need food stamps to make ends meet, but God loves them. He sent me there to tell them that. Me with my degrees from my prestigious universities and my fly pencil skirts and blazers. I seem like an unlikely candidate for this assignment, but have my own family history that qualifies me (as well as God’s leadership).

My associate and I talked yesterday about how you simply cannot judge another person by their outward appearance. But people do it all the time. If I would have judged Christ who was nothing exciting to look at, who was born in a manger and was a Carpenter for a living, well, I would haved missed the mark.

I reflect on this assignment and see its similarity to my very 1st assignment. God could have given me His promotion immediately after my release, but He chose not to. Instead I needed to be shaped even more.

And more souls needed saving.

As difficult as it has been to submit to His lordship Im grateful He chooses to keep removing the pride with these humbling assignments. Im glad He keeps reminding me of what is really important.

People are important.

They come in all different shapes, sizes, colors and social classes. And He has called me to them all.

He has called me to win the masses.

SHALOM