Of course, it was still going to be a while before I would see some real progress in my healing journey. My mind, at this point, felt like it was being eaten alive by rats and like they were gnawing at my brain. I so desperately wanted relief.
What tools are you using in fighting your experience with mental health? Do you have someone or people in your life to confide in with your battle?
All of a sudden, I became afraid to make the next move. All of a sudden, I became afraid to make the wrong move. I had these thoughts in my mind that said, “What if I am outside of God’s will if I apply to this job? What if I am outside of the will of God if I apply to that job? What if, what if, what if…”Have you been there? Do you struggle with excessive, compulsive thoughts that have no rhyme, reason or even logic to them?
Sometimes God is just funny. Like, I normally think about Him in terms of being loving, and gracious, and kind. Caring, and gentle, and intimate…but not really funny. Today, I had to literally laugh out loud though, because I realized, He really does have a sense of humor. The Guy is a straight up comedian.… Continue reading Do You Want a Cat?
I can’t believe it’s been a year. More than a year. I have to remember the tingling in my mind. The needles in my brain. Stabbing. Stabbing. Giving me no peace. No rest. No time to be. There was a hand gripping my heart. A very large hand, and I woke up in the middle… Continue reading Overcoming Anxiety (Poem)
There is a quiet these days. Each morning I wake up and its not like the mornings of years past but its not like the mornings of months past either. Instead of feeling overwhelmed with the Father’s love, or being tormented with fear (which has been the case), I feel–quiet. I feel stillness. I feel… Continue reading After The Storm
People have been asking me what I’m planning for the big 3-4. I honestly have no plans. My emotions have been up and down (ok, mostly down) about the upcoming event and I don’t know how I will feel when it gets here. Will I have a series of bursts of energy and strength… Continue reading Getting Older
Hello there! Please check out my guest post on Single Roots “Why I’m Glad God Gave Me A Roommate…Again”! SHALOM
I remember at the beginning of this very difficult season Holy Spirit said “fight!” and I responded “I don’t want to”. I’m usually honest in my responses to Him because that’s what happens when you have a close relationship with someone. And He already knows my heart anyway so there’s no reason to dabble in… Continue reading Giant Slayer
Can I be honest with you? Because I’d like to. It is my hope that this little blog brings hope and causes people to grow closer to God, but it is also my hope that I am transparent. When I was 19 years old something or rather, Someone got a hold of me. I was… Continue reading When Life Looks Different
This week was full of both rest and fun. Rest because I had 5 days off work (3 of those PTO) and fun because many days were spent with really good people. For Thanksgiving my mom and I went out to eat. Normally one of us cooks (usually her) but this time she wanted something… Continue reading Keep Living