It’s amazing one can be intelligent, driven, successful, beautiful and godly. One can be all those adjectives yet still be susceptible to Foolery. Manipulation. Falsehood. And Deception.
One of my spiritual gifts is discernment. Demons and spiritual entities of darkness approached me early on in my spiritual journey and I was hardly afraid.
I could see and hear Truth: He looked like Love and smelled like Beauty and He was Mine.
But even with all the training, all the experiences in spiritual warfare—I have found—there are still blind spots.
You know when you’re driving and you’re on the freeway and cars are zooming by and you need to get over so you check your mirrors? Then you start moving over and you hear a loud honking as the car next to you lays on their horn and maybe follow it up with a four letter word? That happens because you forgot to check your blind spot. And in real life, I’m so good at that. I’m actually super nervous about switching lanes to the middle lane if someone on the other side of that lane is driving parallel to me. I have this fear that one day we will both try to get over at the same time and then… BAM! Thankfully that has not happened. Probably because I’m so anal about checking my blind spot. In driving that is…
I had to learn there are blind spots in life. There are simply pitfalls and traps that I cannot see, as intelligent and driven and godly as I am. I am not all-seeing. I am not Jesus. And clearly Jesus knew that so He gave me (us) Holy Spirit. So many times in the past He used Holy Spirit to navigate me around those pit falls. Many times I did not understand that He was protecting me. I only felt Rejected. Deprived. Frustrated.
In this season He is using others. They call me and tell me updates on a certain situation. They share revelation on men and relationships and things I was never taught by my father. Or Uncle. Or brother. I find YouTube videos, and books and my eyes slowly become open. It’s a difficult thing to re-train my mind because I have thought one way for so long in this area, but I have overcome much more difficult things. I’m certain this will be added to the list.
It’s unfortunate we live in a fallen world where people take advantage of a person with a good heart. They figure out ways to manipulate and deceive. But one thing my friend told me that really encouraged me was this, “We do not have to be like serpents to be as wise as them”. I believe she is right.
I am learning. I am becoming wise. And I will not trade my dove’s heart for a serpent’s crafty one.
He has done too much for me to make that trade.