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End of the Year Review (2015)

2015 started off with my good friend flying in all the way from Haiti to spend the New Year with me! We ended up at her friend’s neighbor’s house and captured the moment with a selfie.  
February brought in a huge blizzard but that didn’t keep me from celebrating the release of my first book “How to Overcome Heartbreak: Recovering from Misguided Love”. On Valentine’s Day I slipped and slid all the way across town to pick up homemade cupcakes from my friend who has her own bakery. I did think about re-scheduling the event due to the many accidents I was seeing while I was out and about getting ready, but I’m glad I did not. Apparently 6 inches of snow and ice does not scare Clevelanders when there is a holiday to be celebrated. I had a great turnout for the first release party.  
March was full of planning for the larger book release party being held on my b day. I scheduled the caterer, made the playlist, booked the venue, and hired the photo booth people. April came in style and my 32nd b day with it. My 2nd release party was a smash and I was overwhelmed by the love of the Father. This was truly a time of celebrating the work He had done in my life thus far regarding healing, wholeness and relationships. I was able to share my story at the party via the youtube video I created. The food was amazing, the photo booth was so much fun and everyone had a grand time. It felt like we were in some ritzy club in New York. God is faithful.   
   
That very next month my friend flew me in to Boston to continue my b day celebration. We were spoiled by her rich sister and enjoyed walking the city. We visited MIT, ate at a 5 star hotel and took the Harvard tour. We even watched Legally Blond in honor of being in Boston 😆.   
 

That same month my friends and I made our way to our alama mater to walk the campus and celebrate our 10 year anniversary!   

 

And of course there was Mother’s Day…  

The summer was full of time with friends, b days, graduations and wedding celebrations. My high school BFF dropped in for a visit and we hung out with our fam.    

My college BFF flew in from Florida and we kicked it Cleveland style. Then I made my way to Cinci to celebrate my friend’s 32nd b day. In August I got to celebrate my friend’s wedding. She married as a 50-year-old virgin. God is faithful.    

    
   
 The big event came in September when I took my first international trip to Haiti. I could not have imagined what a blessed time I would have there and how naturally beautiful the country is! My friend spoiled me with showing me its beauty and I enjoyed the tropical waterfalls, the pools, the mountains and so much more. I will never forget Haiti.    

   
 October revealed another first. I took my mom to Disney World for her b day.  She had never been before and we had a grand time.    

 I also had the blessing of selling more books!  

 But little did I know, God had another huge blessing in store for me around the corner. After 3 years of waiting, He released me from my current employer. Once again, I had learned contentment, I had learned joy, I had learned endurance, and His grace was sufficient to finish the assignment that once brought me to tears. I honestly did not think it would ever end. I projected 2 more years of the same. I succumbed to my destiny of boredom and humility. But He saw, when I didn’t see. He believed when I didn’t. And He showed me that once again, there is an end date to the waiting. 

 I had another miracle occur in November. Some much needed healing from a broken relationship. My mantra for this year has been “healing 2015”. It has even been passwords on my work computer. I have been so adamant about getting healed from childhood issues and other relationship trauma. God has shown me the purpose of my singleness and why He kept saying “no” to all the previous men who pursued. He has been making me into the woman He originally intended. That takes TIME. I never wanted to give Him time, but that is what He asked for. When the Creator of all things asks you for something, you can’t help but give it to Him.  

This week I will plan for a gathering at my house. I will show a slide show of highlights from 2015 and all of the blessings God has given. He has overtaken me with blessings (Deut 28:2). I will celebrate the New Year with women who love me with His love and I will look forward to the new door He will open in my career. 

 I am still in waiting. I am waiting in my career (again) and I am (still) waiting for the man He has promised. I am learning that I am a work in progress and always will be. But I’m thankful that the burden is not on me to complete this work. It’s on Him. And He already did it on the cross.

  
Shalom & Happy New Year!!!!

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Back To The Beginning

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him and without Him nothing was made. In Him was life and the life was the light of men.”- John 1: 1-4
“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form and void and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light. Genesis 1:1-4

My pastor has a saying he’s been sharing for years now, “God’s original intent is His eternal intent”. I appreciate that revelation because often I get distracted by what is not God’s original intent. I get caught up in the dysfunction and the temporary.  As an intercessor it is my call to stand in the gap so that the eternal is manifested in the natural. So that the original intent is demonstrated instead of the dysfunction. For several years now I have been in training to more effectively use this gift of intercession yet my own dysfunction has caused me frustration with the training. The good news is, there is grace and God equips the called.

So many times things happen in life and we are caught off guard. We are shook to our core as we repeat the same negative experiences. We don’t understand why they keep happening. I am learning one great bit of wisdom in this season if that is the case.  

Look back to the beginning.  

What was the foundation of your relationship before it ended? Where were you emotionally, mentally, spiritually, when it started? Where were they? That will give you insight into why it ended. It has given me insight.  

Even more insight has come into looking at the family of origin. We are all born needy people. In the beginning the first man and woman were privileged to have their needs met by the Father. The Source. The only One who can possibly meet all of their needs. He designed the family to be a community united with Him to tend to the needs of children. Clearly, since the fall of man that has not happened. We all had unmet needs. And therefore, we all began choosing relationships and trying to get our needs met in those relationships that were not met from the family structure.

We were made “image bearers” of the Creator. The Creator is Light and Love. We were made to reflect light and love but often we reflect pain and selfishness and pride. We look at false images of the world to sustain ourselves and to fill the emptiness, but they never do. So we run an endless rat race toward emptiness until we find that all is vanity.

I am in a precious season of stillness. The Father has sat me down and turned my face to look upon His so that again I can be reminded of who I am. So that I can remember I am the apple of His eye and the desire of his heart. The passion of His cross.

I am favored and graced to have this experience in spite of not wanting to be still. I am blessed He once again carved out space and time so that I can look back not only to the family structure but even further to the Source of the family. To the Original Image that I was created in. The Image of Light and Love.  

Here is a sermon that speaks on man remembering who we are.  

SHALOM!