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I’ve always known I would one day start my own business. I just didn’t know when or even what it would be but it was something that stayed in the back of my mind as a “one day” thing. Then “one day came”. After my fourth season of unemployment and about 9 months of waiting, it came.
I’d like to say I “waited well” but the truth is I dragged my feet. I kicked and screamed. During the course of applying and interviewing and resume-updating, I resisted His nudging to move forward in creating an LLC. Until finally all of my options were none and I could no longer resist His nudge.
I took the steps but still in my heart wondered if He could really be leading me to do this thing full time? Certainly not! Everyone knows entrepreneurship takes a while to reap a profit when getting started! Clearly God knows this as well! So of course I need to be trying to find something to supplement this vision? But circumstances said otherwise…
During the time of my unemployment (before I got my first client) a dear friend of mine lost her mother. I was the only friend who could be there for her physically because a work schedule was not an issue. It was of course significant for me to be the one walking with her through a difficult time because I myself am still in recovery of my own difficult time. I was with her when I found out my client had hired me. We stood in the middle of the craft store and I cried tears of joy as she embraced me in her arms. It wasn’t until I received that offer did other offers from other companies come through. They came flooding in.
For several months the doors were closed. Now they were swinging open.
Initially I took an offer but realized it would take away from building my own business. I would actually be getting paid more working for myself and logically it made no sense to reduce the hours for my client. By faith, I declined it. And by faith I started building for my client a system that I hoped would meet her needs.
The beauty in not only seeing the fruit from this step of faith to be a small business owner is that my first client came through a woman who has had so much purpose in my life. First a blog follower, then a roommate, then a friend, and now a sister. Working side by side with her shows me the Father’s love and care.
His provision is consistent in every area.
I have struggled so much in my career and yet never have I went without. Often I have felt the “downtimes” were too long. The seasons of unemployment. The constant feelings of rejection when hearing “no” and facing closed doors. Even when knowing it is for the best, it still hurts. Now I can look back and see HIs perfect timing. 9 months living with my friend/now sister. 9 months living with the woman who loved me more than life itself. And 9 months of “rest” and recovery before my business began.
And I’m honored to be continuing the legacy of the women who made me who I am today in a field that was once my weakness and is now His strength.
I am grateful for ABN Bookkeeping LLC.
He comes over to my desk and updates me on things to do. I realize quickly I need to take notes but there isn’t time so I take notes in my head. I think about waitresses and how you know the really good ones are the ones who don’t need to write anything down. I focus intently on his words concentrating with all my mental capacity to be equivalent to one of those stellar waitresses. It must work because I successfully remember all the important things.
Afterward I ask about his meeting yesterday. He was out of the office all day at a work conference. His eyes light up as he discusses the agenda and what he took away from it. He is the visionary functiong in his identity. I am the administrator come to help bring the vision to pass.
He says he learned about branding and that each of us, the 3 current employees of the company, will be developing our individual brand. I love it. Once again I am reminded of how there is opportunity for growth here. The package this blessing has come in really caught me off guard and even some of the grunt work that first week was difficult to deal with, but now we are getting somewhere.
All week I have poured over numbers, diligently working to get things in order and catch him up for the last 3 years. This week I have been in my element. It is slowly coming together. There have been days I have been in the office all by my lonesome, there is so much autonomy and freedom. A far cry from the office gossip and micro-managing I was under. Even when I am not alone in the office each person is so busy studying their own project, no one is paying attention to me. It is a place of rest. It is a place of recovery and healing.
I have battled and warred in this season. The war has been within me but God has kindly and graciously kept me from losing my sanity. He has opened doors unexpected and is teaching me wholeness in a way I didn’t know existed. A way I didnt know that I needed. Mental health is so needed.
Each night I leave that he is still there working he thanks me. As if he isn’t paying me to do this job. As if I don’t need him just as much as he needs me. It is just his heart.
So humble and kind. I have never before experienced such leadership.
I am being restored.