I’ve always known I would one day start my own business. I just didn’t know when or even what it would be but it was something that stayed in the back of my mind as a “one day” thing. Then “one day came”. After my fourth season of unemployment and about 9 months of waiting, it came.
I’d like to say I “waited well” but the truth is I dragged my feet. I kicked and screamed. During the course of applying and interviewing and resume-updating, I resisted His nudging to move forward in creating an LLC. Until finally all of my options were none and I could no longer resist His nudge.
I took the steps but still in my heart wondered if He could really be leading me to do this thing full time? Certainly not! Everyone knows entrepreneurship takes a while to reap a profit when getting started! Clearly God knows this as well! So of course I need to be trying to find something to supplement this vision? But circumstances said otherwise…
During the time of my unemployment (before I got my first client) a dear friend of mine lost her mother. I was the only friend who could be there for her physically because a work schedule was not an issue. It was of course significant for me to be the one walking with her through a difficult time because I myself am still in recovery of my own difficult time. I was with her when I found out my client had hired me. We stood in the middle of the craft store and I cried tears of joy as she embraced me in her arms. It wasn’t until I received that offer did other offers from other companies come through. They came flooding in.
For several months the doors were closed. Now they were swinging open.
Initially I took an offer but realized it would take away from building my own business. I would actually be getting paid more working for myself and logically it made no sense to reduce the hours for my client. By faith, I declined it. And by faith I started building for my client a system that I hoped would meet her needs.
The beauty in not only seeing the fruit from this step of faith to be a small business owner is that my first client came through a woman who has had so much purpose in my life. First a blog follower, then a roommate, then a friend, and now a sister. Working side by side with her shows me the Father’s love and care.
His provision is consistent in every area.
I have struggled so much in my career and yet never have I went without. Often I have felt the “downtimes” were too long. The seasons of unemployment. The constant feelings of rejection when hearing “no” and facing closed doors. Even when knowing it is for the best, it still hurts. Now I can look back and see HIs perfect timing. 9 months living with my friend/now sister. 9 months living with the woman who loved me more than life itself. And 9 months of “rest” and recovery before my business began.
And I’m honored to be continuing the legacy of the women who made me who I am today in a field that was once my weakness and is now His strength.
I am grateful for ABN Bookkeeping LLC.
Nicole, I still really admire the way that you write! Throughout all the intense seasons that you’ve lived through even just this year, the Father’s faithfulness and intentionality is amazing. I’m glad that we’re even coworkers now!
Very high praise coming from you!!!