It’s funny how you walk with God long enough and you start to notice patterns in your life. Lots of my patterns have to do with waiting. Often there will be a period of stretching, pressing, waiting and then a release. In this season there are some new things happening. The roommate is fully moved in and I have to marvel at how seamless that transition was. One day she wasn’t there and then all of a sudden she was. After 3 years. That situation shows me how much He cares for us. He knew I needed a period of recovery and He knew just how long that recovery period should be.
Other new stuff…open door after open door continue to lead the path before me with my book. I’m excited to be a vendor this week at a popular poetry event happening. God has given me so much favor, I simply don’t deserve it. He’s been stirring up a desire in me to build my business. I’ve been working, working, working, and I’m intrigued by what the final outcome will be. There are so many resources coming to me. I am surrounded by go getters and make-it-happeners. No one in my inner circle is standing still. I like those seasons.
But even in the busyness there is still down time. There is still quiet. I still feel stretched in some ways. I’m still waiting in some ways.
I’m waiting to hear His voice again. The way I used to. I’m waiting to start a family, though I told my mom this weekend there won’t be any grandkids if I’m waiting in a few more years. She and I have a differing of opinion on when it is too late to have children…
For now, my books are my babies. I am pregnant with purpose and I don’t say that to be super spiritual. It is simply a fact. I feel much like Paul, poured out like a drink offering. I know the sacrifices made were for the written word. The projects I’m working on. The people my story will help.
The roomie and I will have our first roommate outing tonight. I look forward to it.
I look forward to each day these days. To be home with a cup of tea and my laptop at my finger tips. Everything is cozy and comforting and that helps the hurt I am still in recovery from.
Fun photo shoot 😉
SHALOM
