There have been a lot of changes for me this year. I posted a collage of pictures from the summer with the title: “What a great summer!” My friend/old roommate commented, “Was it really a great summer?!” 😳 She reminded me that we moved out of our old home this summer and we submitted to the move, both resigned 😑 . “Oh yea, I forgot about that,” I said, but went on to explain that I was only thinking about the highlights.
Contentment is a difficult thing to practice and I have had my bouts with it. God has put me through certain spiritual obstacle courses to develop me in this area but it seems like my humanity continues to oppose that particular fruit of the Spirit. It takes some real effort to focus on the positive when the negative is still present. I think even though social media can be abused/misused it does allow for us to celebrate the positives and the highlights of life. I can honestly say that even though I find this season very difficult with its changes (and with its lack of change), God has given me many desires of my heart.
And even when I have thwarted his gifts and misused his presents He replaced them with more gifts. More presents. The love He demonstrates is a love I do not understand. I simply can’t fathom His mercy and grace and love but I have glimpsed it so much in this season that I feel I’m gaining some knowledge.
This weekend I’ll get to promote the books He gave me. Writings that show how He used very difficult times and made purpose out of them. I’ll also get to visit with some dear sisters who I have been on this journey with for 15 years now. I’ll have more opportunities to experience His love and goodness in the form of community and social events. These are things I have desired but did not know that He would so frequently lavish them upon me.
Even in the midst of heartbreak, pain, and suffering, there is His hand. Leading me and guiding me and ordering steps that have been difficult to take. My own testimony shows His faithfulness and how when we are weak, truly He is strong.
Happy Rosh Hashanah!