Crossing Over

Yesterday was my 31st birthday. It was a blessed day. I took the day off work, got a much needed trim, and whipped my hair back and forth just like Willow Smith.


I spoke with tons of family and friends. My phone, email and Facebook page were flooded with well wishes and blessings. I thanked God for His presence in my life.

Funny that this b day could go so much better than last year’s and this past year has been way more strenuous. But as I’ve learned in times past, I tend to excel under pressure. Not because of my own strength, but because I rely on His. Now if only I could get into the mode of relying on Him when everything is going well…

So I’m 31 now and it still sounds weird saying it. I think we become comfortable with a certain age as time goes by. I mean we are that age for 12 whole months.

365 days.

8,765 hours…

I googled that last figure so don’t be impressed…

Truth be told, I didn’t just get comfortable with being 30, I got comfortable in life. I got comfortable so God had to shake things up a bit. And as He shook and shook and shook, my idols started appearing. Those old idols I thought were gone. I thought I had given Him them years ago. But then He revealed some secrets to me about TRUE freedom. He revealed that there were patterns in my life that He was working through and I had spent the last several years laying the ax to the root of those idols, but now was the time for the final swing. This was the grand finale for this area of work He was doing in my life. So right before my 31st b day we took the swing together.


That swing was hard. It was painful. I thought it would kill me. But I also thought the first swing I took 9 years ago would kill me. And it didn’t. If anything it propelled me into freedom. Just as with that first swing, this last swing would set the course for my future. God was giving me all of this understanding and peace to encourage me to trust Him. Because even at almost 31 I was struggling with trusting Him. I’ve always struggled with trusting Him.

So we took the swing and I lived through it. The days following have been a faith walk, but I know from experience He will meet me and my healing will flow. He will move me from this current place, propel me into my destiny, and bless me with my reward. And not just me, but this promise is for the generations. He is honoring my bloodline and answering prayers generations before me have prayed. He is answering them through me. That is how amazing He is. He does not forget His promises to His children. Even if they are with Him in eternity, He is still fulfilling them on the earth.

And so now I walk in freedom. I’ve crossed over into my 30’s. I’ve crossed over into the next season and cycle of blessings that He has promised. That first step was hard. It was crucial. And I thought I would die. But I didn’t. Because He has so much more to do in and through me.

Years ago I made a promise to God that if He would free me, than I would take everyone with me. “Jesus if You free me, I’m taking all my people with me.  It will be a revolution!”.  That is what I wrote in an old journal entry.

Well, He has kept His end of the bargain and I have every intention of keeping mine.

Here’s to the 30’s 🙂



BTW, this is my first flat iron, since being natural…


By Nicole D. Miller

Nicole D. Miller is an author and heartfelt writer, as expressed on her blog Better Than Wine. Her books are published at and on Amazon. She loves all things “old school” hip-hop and R&B, along with any outfit that involves cute boots and thick scarves. She even manages to run her own bookkeeping business ( when she’s not cuddling her cute cat she fondly calls, “Squeaks”.

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