When this new season started I thought I had this faith thing in the bag. I thought “I’ve been around the block a few times. I’ve passed my share of tests. I’ve seen God’s faithfulness so many times. Too many times. But there is never a point of arrival. This season has backed me up against the wall. In mere days I have fought simply not to lose my mind and even my faith.
I’m still fighting.
The one thing that has kept me is remembering my testimony and His promises for my future. This present battle cannot be my end. But when will it end?
I was encouraged by Elijah’s story that even after such a great victory he lost courage. Yet God took His time wooing him back to faith. 40 days in fact.
One morning I woke up in the midst of the battle and Jesus reminded me of the man who was blind and the Lord brought back his sight in stages. At first the man saw men as trees which some believe were really angels. And then his natural sight was fully restored. Not to mention there was this unorthodox way God had of healing him, a concoction of saliva and dirt. The point is God moves however He wants to move and sometimes He moves in stages. Sometimes He doesn’t move in the way He did in the past. That can be difficult when I want things done overnight. I want healing overnight. Deliverance overnight. But sometimes it takes 40 days.
What I’m learning in this process is to just give Him one more day. Maybe today was a battle but maybe the next day won’t be. Maybe my deliverance is coming in stages.
This mindset is one of resilience. I didn’t have this understanding before this season. I didn’t need it because I had His presence and assurance and awareness of His love. I was very dependent on my feelings and awareness of God. But when feelings are gone what do you have? You are left with your testimony. You are left with all the ways He moved in the past in your life. You are left with His word that doesn’t change.
And that has been enough for me to just keep giving Him one more day.
In other news, here is a selfie from this morning😉:
yes, All is have is today – right how to give Him praise and thankfulness for the faith walk today!!!!
Thanks for being so vulnerable in this post! And totally unrelated, I really like your hair! 🙂
Tx!!! I really love this pic 😊