I’m sitting in one of my favorite restaurants. Drinking beer and eating lamb. It’s heaven. Except I have battled in my mind 60 days and my shield of faith is wavering. Experience and history tells me this is only temporary and there will be a breakthrough. Just gotta keep moving forward. So I came here for comfort food and decided to start writing. Adele blasts in my headphones and for some reason it sounds like a worship song. An anthem declaring me and my friend’s victories from all that we have endured. I remind myself of the words spoken over my life and God’s word.
He gives us a future and a hope.
He completes the work He started.
This cannot be my end with Him. Maybe it is just a new beginning.
It has been 2 months and even with the elation and joy the waiting started with those high emotions haven’t been seen since the 2nd week. Not that I am struggling financially or hard pressed to work, it is just the path. The waiting on top of the waiting on top of the waiting. I can see its purpose. It gives me a testimony when I have doubt. It shows I couldn’t have made it without Him. Still, its not easy. Waiting is never easy.
I was told 2016 is the year of reward. That God is better than any Accountant and has accounted for every tear wept in the waiting and the sacrifices on this journey. That really resonated with me since Im called to Accounting. I take pleasure in keeping a record.
Im sure my tears are floating around a bottle somewhere on the Lord’s shelf in heaven. Not just for myself but tears for my loved ones.
I know they are reminding Him of His promises. I cant wait to see those promises.
I cant wait to see Him.
SHALOM
