Now that I’ve walked some with Jesus I can look back on the path and see His hand, working, molding, shaping and developing. I kicked and screamed during most of that development but still, He had His way.
A friend of a friend had to give up a relationship recently. She cried, he cried and maybe even God cried. But she gave it up because God told her to. I was super impressed she obeyed so quickly, thinking back to my own similar experience nearly 2 years ago. It took me more than 2 wks to obey. I have never heard God so clearly in my life. Before that time I really thought I could choose. I had waited so long, surely it did not make a difference at that point if I settled? Of course I didn’t call it settling back then. Instead I justified and reasoned and ignored the red flags.
Thank God for His mercy.
The decision to lay down that relationship was probably the most rewarding decision I have ever made but at the time it felt like one of the most painful.
God met me and did not leave me hanging when asking for my obedience. He manifested His presence and revelation like never before. In the coming year I experienced His love in a way I didnt even know existed.
Now I think about His love and struggle to receive it. It is so overwhelming and intense its hard to believe someone could love me that much, especially the Creator of all things!
I realize in this season that knowing His love is the foundation of wholeness. He is after me to know this love regardless of my thoughts on the matter. He has been after me since birth I just didn’t realize it. All gifts He gives are to keep directing us to His love. He tests us and matures us and calls us higher. He calls us to the deep.
It is all to know His love. To be satisfied by it. And to offer it to this lost world.