My dad just sent me a pic of a diet coke bottle with my name on it and instantly I thought of the Father and His love for me. The first thing that went through my mind when I got the pic was “He IS thinking of me!” (in reference to the Lord, b/c I know God uses my dad to reveal Himself to me). I realize that is the question always beating in my heart. “Is God thinking of me? Am I loved?” Instantly I knew His voice said, “I am ALWAYS thinking of you!”
And I know I received that (prophetic) word years ago. And I know His word (the Bible) says that. And I know He has done sooo many things in my life to prove that. We (His kids) are written on the palms of His hands… He cannot forget us. Those same palms were brutally torn with nails 2000+ years ago on Calvary. How could He possibly forget? But still, I wonder…
My dad has such power to demonstrate the love of the Father to me. My mom does too but my dad in a different way.
Dads were made to demonstrate the love of the Father in a unique way.
I really want to be in that place where I never doubt the Father’s love. It happens w/o me even realizing it. Throughout the day, I THINK I am aware of His love, but then something like this happens and I realize the doubt that was beneath the surface. I know if I am not fully aware of His love, I will look for that desire to be met by other people and things that simply will not be able to satisfy it. I experienced this recently with a friend. She loves to connect socially and is a natural extrovert whereas I am a natural introvert. I simply do not have the capacity to meet her communication needs. The good thing is she is also growing in having the Lord meet her needs and does not expect me to. But it was a stark realization for me in our conversation that humans simply cannot fill the perceived void of another person. I’ve heard it soooo many times from married couples “your husband is not God!” & “there is a God-size whole in your heart that only He can fill”. Well, easy for them to say! They have someone so they know by experience. But when you are single, or even just waiting on that next thing like buying a home, getting a new job or having a baby, it gets difficult to believe that “thing” will not fulfill you. You really have to walk by faith and practice being content in the season you are in.
But today, God was able to speak to me and answer the question I did not even know I was asking in my heart: “Do you love me Father? Are You thinking of me?”
“Yes Nicole, I am ALWAYS thinking of you! I am ALWAYS loving you!”
Here is a passage that really blessed me today! “and you have been filled in Him” Col 2:10 (ESV)
We are complete and filled with His love, acceptance and purpose. I have to remind myself of these truths every morning when I wake up. But it’s nice when I can see Him also reminding me through my loved ones…