I’ve been hearing that word in this season, “Get comfortable being uncomfortable” It is my personality to get comfortable. If I go to someone’s house, even if it’s my first visit, and we are in a social setting, and I feel it is a safe place, I will more than likely take my shoes off, fold my feet underneath me on the sofa and make myself comfortable. I simply do not like being uncomfortable. I even drive without shoes in the summer, usually with one leg up on the seat that is leaned back while the other is on the pedal b/c that is most comfortable for me. My music is also blaring. I know, you probably will never ride with me knowing this, but I’ve been doing it a good 10 years now and have never had an incident if that makes you feel better 😉.
For the bulk of my time in fellowship with my spiritual community I have been very UNcomfortable. Church pews were replaced by school auditorium rows and then seats in soup kitchens and then with chairs in hotel rooms. We finally found some stability in a children’s daycare/old school building for 5 years where we arranged ourselves in a circle and dialogued the lessons Holy Spirit was teaching. But even that environment didn’t last and we shifted to Panera Bread (yes, the restaurant). Which I can’t complain about b/c I love that place and to have spiritual meetings there was pretty much the best of both worlds. But again we moved and now meet at a member’s house.
We are always moving. Always shifting and following Holy Spirit regardless of the space, time or venue. If that were not enough the spiritual lessons we learn from themselves have made me very uncomfortable. No more being babied with a word from the Pastor that spoke exactly into the situation I was dealing with. Now I was being trained and equipped to be a maturing believer. Which required me to give my feedback and to release my own sound. And for the last 5 years or so I have yearned for release from these lessons that seemed over my head and not relevant to my personal life. Then in this season the puzzle pieces started coming together. Now I can see that what I’ve been taught is not only relevant to my personal life but is vital to it. Still, I feel like the lessons are really for my future self. Like they are big shoes that I still need to grow into. But when I shared that with my Pastor he reminded me “get comfortable being uncomfortable”. The man has 30 years on me and I know wisdom when I hear it.
As previously shared my nature is to find comfort so being uncomfortable hits me in a way it may not hit others. Still, I see the need for being uncomfortable. Living alone in this season was so uncomfortable for me. Not that I hadn’t lived alone before but I had never lived alone and had no codependent relationships to lean on. But now I am actually getting more comfortable in this season. I am valuing my alone time to seek Him in the mornings and evenings. He (God) is the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last person I think of when going to bed at night. I feel like I have the luxury of developing emotionally, spiritually and mentally without any distractions in this season. I can shut out the world and zone in on Him and receive His downloads.
If you find yourself uncomfortable on the path He has for you, I encourage you to lean into Him. Only He can fulfill that longing or need that is causing you grief.
Only He can satisfy.
Only He can comfort.
And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you forever