So this month marks my 2 year anniversary with this little blog :-). It was definitely NOT love at first sight, I’ll tell you that much! Being a “writer” was never on my agenda. Though always an avid reader, I never intentionally pursued writing. I imagined that maybe “one day” I’d come out with a book or two, but to me that day was far, far into the future. You know, when I was old and gray. Like maybe in my 40s :-). But now that I’m over the 30 mark, 40 just doesn’t seem that old these days…
So here I am with 2 years of writing under my belt and that book I thought was so far off is now in the publishing process (WOW). And you, my faithful readers have been on this journey with me every step of the way! So I celebrate this blog. Because it was in the heart of the Father and that in and of itself touches me more deeply than I can express in words. He loves us so much and has such good things for us, if we will just wait for them.
There was a point in my walk with God where I wanted to discard all of my journals. I even wrote about it on this little blog. I was so frustrated and angry at His ways. At His path. None of my dreams were coming to fruition and I seemed to be getting farther and farther away from all that He had promised (and older and older). I wanted to throw away those journals that wrote about those dreams. I wanted to burn them. I’m glad I didn’t. What I didn’t know then and what I’m learning now is:
1. Often dreams take TIME to come true.
2. God is more concerned about our character than our happiness (that one bears repeating).
3. Our dreams must come from the heart of our Father and not from our sinful nature.
Was it my dream to be a writer? Yes. One day. After I had accomplished all of the other dreams I felt were more pressing and that I had a greater desire for. But His path has designated the season for writing to be for such a time as this. To work out my “right brain” in the midst of daily “left brain” finance/accounting activities. It is probably His way of balancing me out
So like with all of my gifts I use them for His glory and with the hopes that they will somehow advance His kingdom. And in the process I get the benefit of getting to know Him just a little better than I would have had I sought out my own agenda. As I tried to do so many times in the past…
Thankfully I was unsuccessful 🙂