Standing in the Gap

This morning I awoke from a dream. That’s pretty common for me, I dream often. And I dream weird stuff often so sometimes I don’t know if it’s from God or from something I ate.  But this dream stuck with me and usually that means it’s from God.

In the dream there was a boy (18-20 yrs old) who was strung out on drugs and he was crying out to his father that he could not do the drugs anymore. That he wanted to die instead. His father also was a drug addict and I knew, had gotten his son addicted to drugs. I knew that both the father and son had really rough backgrounds and they used drugs as a coping mechanism. When the boy cried out that he wanted to end his life I woke up. Holy Spirit led me into intercession. And at 4:30 am I was on my face before the Lord interceding for a boy who may or may not exist. But even if he himself does not exist, sadly I know there are many like him who do exist. I have had many experiences like this but not in a while. And so as I prayed I felt God’s presence and just how BIG He is. And I felt my own calling. Just as BIG. And I partnered with Him as we prayed for this boy. I read scripture and agreed with the will of God for his life. I will probably never meet this boy this side of heaven, but that didn’t matter. I felt the Father’s heart for him.

I am learning that we have desires just as God has desires. And I believe He has given us those desires because we are made in His image. I know how much I struggle when I have unmet desires. I imagine God doesn’t like the feeling too much either.  God desires wholeness and healing and restoration. He desires Love and Truth to prevail. What’s really cool about God is the fact that He could heal and deliver and make whole all by Himself. But instead, He created human beings to be His kids. And He called us to partner with Him in His story of redemption.

We are made in His image and our callings are vital to the fruition of His plan in the earth. I was reminded of that this morning as I stood in the gap for a boy who may or may not exist, who I may or may never meet, but who was as real to me in a dream, as he is to the Father’s heart.


By Nicole D. Miller

Nicole D. Miller is an author and heartfelt writer, as expressed on her blog Better Than Wine. Her books are published at and on Amazon. She loves all things “old school” hip-hop and R&B, along with any outfit that involves cute boots and thick scarves. She even manages to run her own bookkeeping business ( when she’s not cuddling her cute cat she fondly calls, “Squeaks”.

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