Yesterday at fellowship we talked about the importance of having a good foundation. Whether it’s a spiritual foundation, the foundation of a building or even the foundation of a relationship, one fact is consistent: whatever is built upon that foundation cannot be expected to last if the foundation is weak. In regards to our spiritual foundation, every person on earth was born with cracks. We were born into sin and sin creates cracks in a person’s foundation. Our mental, emotional and spiritual perspective is filtered through a negative belief system. In the beginning we were given all but sin made us feel we were going without. We were loved but we felt rejected. We were in deep fellowship and relationship but we felt alone. I like to think I am not the only person on the planet who has felt these things even while walking with Christ.
Of course God in His love and mercy became the solution to our cracks. He saw that we had holes and gaps and missing components to our personhood and He filled them all.
With His blood.
The only thing is, this completion, though done on the cross, does not manifest in our lives overnight. Instead, it is the day-by-day journeying with Him in deep relationship that brings about our true selves.
But since His ways are not our ways, most of this journeying with Him is difficult. It feels like you are being stretched. It makes you uncomfortable.
And often it is painful.
I have experienced several forms of waiting in my journey and I’m blessed to say I have passed many of these tests. I can see the pattern in my life that the waiting times have been so needed because He was refocusing me on what truly mattered. He helped me to learn to not wait on the gift but to wait on Him. I could be frustrated that We (He and I) have gone through the same tests over and over and learned the same lessons (me learning, Him teaching), but I realize it is about wholeness. He is peeling back the layers of immaturity and dysfunction. I am not wandering aimlessly in the wilderness like the children of Israel like I once thought I was. Instead I am moving forward on a path of purpose that is designed like a helix. Just as the Jews see time, I now see time; b/c God sees time that way. It is in these moments of waiting, He is repairing my foundation. He is filling in the cracks. And in this particular season of waiting, He is revealing the oneness that the Son and the Father had while Christ walked the earth. It is the oneness we are all called to but we do not all choose it.
Many are called, few are chosen.
But there is grace to choose.