This morning I spent some quiet time outside on my balcony/porch. 60 degrees, rainy and perfect. I was alone except for a mug of tea in my hand and thoughts in my head. I’ve been feeling the Lord leading me to do this and nothing else. Normally I would journal or read the bible or pray, but He is beckoning me to just BE. I think we all need that. To just BE. To have time and space to not be productive, not check things off our to do lists. To not be a “doer”.
30 minutes of silence.
I saw a jogger running and silently cheered him on in my head. I can relate to the jogger’s challenges: one foot in front of the other, for miles on end. I heard my neighbor before I saw her leave the house. She was saying something in Spanish to a loved one before stepping into her vehicle. Hopefully it was “I love you”.
This is my neighborhood. This is the designated time and location the Lord has carved out for me today, August 13th, 2014. I am in His perfect will and it has been a journey walking in it. But always, always, He keeps me safe. Tucked away into hidden places of oneness with Him.
I have an abundance of love that I’m awakening to in this season. It’s His love, even though I see it most clearly through others. Through community. And He’s even met that tenacious craving I’ve had for professional development this year. It came so subtly I almost missed it. It wasn’t until I quieted my soul that I saw it clearly. He is sculpting me in ways I am still not even aware. But I am growing in awareness. I am growing in awareness of His purposes. Seeing things more and more the way He sees things and that has resulted in my own maturity. Maturity I didn’t even know was needed.
I finished off my morning with an episode of “What Not to Wear” while taking down my twists. These too are a part of His unfolding of my identity, reflected in the natural. Hair and fashion, who would have thought?
Religion is falling off of me and I am so grateful. Religion has skewed my perception of Him and even hindered the advancement of His kingdom. But He has called me to be one who advances. And so He has taken His time to care and mold and shape me. Because of His own goodness. Because of His own love.