Songs of Solomon 1:2
At 38 and counting, I’m grateful for the Father’s path for me. I’m grateful that He put me exactly where I always wanted to be in so many ways. I’m grateful for the things that are on the horizon, especially with my business(es). But the question tucked in between all of that gratefulness is,
Will I have children?
From my very own womb? And in these moments of questioning, I am Hannah. And Abraham. And David. Who all asked the same thing. With the same yearning. And the same burning desire.
Education was the ticket for me and it grieves my heart that our system is set up to advance only those who are privileged enough to pay for it.
Even in, quote on quote “public schools”, there is still a fee.
The only ones who could attend, were the ones whose parents had the money to pay the rent, oh excuse me, the mortgage, to live in those districts.
But what about those who value education enough to apply themselves? What about those of us who work hard and love learning and will do what it takes to get to the top?
Even if we have a starting point that is further behind our peers.
Isn’t it interesting how we human beings have this tendency to compare ourselves with those around us? I mean, sometimes we look at this celeb or this Hollywood star, or even (in keeping up with the trends I’ll say) Tik Tok Star, and go, awww…I can’t do what they do. Or, I don’t look like… Continue reading The Comparison Trap
Hi guys! This next featured guest is a brother from back in the day day. We actually met through blogging and it’s so amazing to see how we have both evolved since those early days. I am definitely excited to be apart of both of J’s podcasts (feel free to check out my interview from… Continue reading Life as an Entrepreneur: How I Got Started- J. Immanuel
This weekend I had the pleasure of being interviewed by a woman who I recently connected with (shout out to Sage Da Coach from Outside the Box!). She asked me what I had learned this year from God. I instantly knew, I learned that I need others. I have been so wired to be self-reliant and independent, and a lot of times I need to be, but I am learning that I don’t need to be all the time. There are times I simply will not be able to do things all on my own, and I will need help.
I finally realized one day that the question I kept asking, “What is my purpose?” was already answered. This happened when I found myself engaging within a community of people who were on a similar mission. Like minded, driven, young, passionate people, pursuing small business. Pursuing purpose. They were building something, creating something out of nothing, and transforming their communities in the process.
During the celebration of love last week, as you can guess, my own love life became a topic of conversation more times than I cared to discuss. I understood this was going to be a given, and something I would just need to “bear through”, so I navigated the questions as best I could. “Are you dating? What are you looking for? You’re so attractive, why aren’t you seeing anyone?”, etc…etc… Even when the question wasn’t asked out loud, it loomed in their eyes as they pondered my single status in confusion.
I have other friends who do not have close families, and so we have been intentional to connect during these times, so that we have someone. For the last three Christmases, one of my besties and I have taken trips that have been phenomenal. There have been some sad moments of course, but the comfort of sharing these moments with someone who gets it, is invaluable. I understand that the road I am called to walk is definitely rocky, but there are several around me who are walking it with me, and that brings its own joy.
Have you been there? Have you had an issue that you have been dealing with, but have not gone to God about it? Have you felt like, He has more major things to worry about in the world like this world wide pandemic, or other world affairs? The thing is, in my journey, I have numerous testimonies of God showing up for me, even in the smallest things. My friends do too! He has shown us time and time again that He is, “Intimately acquainted with all our ways” (Psalm 139:3) and that, “He cares for us” (1 Peter 5:7).
In all of the stories I’ve heard concerning domestic violence, the theme in them is that, even with all the craziness and chaos and danger, it’s still hard to leave that person. I can resonate with that. I know that we logically may not understand desiring someone who is harming us, but the heart is complex. When we give our emotions and being to someone else, it can be hard to just walk away.
