This weekend was a very good weekend. I took off Friday and though I had some running around to do I enjoyed a nice lunch alone at one of my favorite restaurants. I got to talk to some friends on the phone about an interview I had that day and was so blessed by how many texts and calls I received. I truly have good people in my life who love me and are supporting me in this crazy journey with all its twists and turns. I slept in til almost noon Sat morning (I know, crazy) and only got up to get ready for the days’ events. I stopped at my hairdresser’s salon to look at the extensions she had available. I’m planning on a new do for the big 3-2. I then made an appearance at my friend’s baby shower. I ignored the little voices in my head that wanted me to feel sorry for myself that I was not having a similar shower. Really, how could I feel a certain way when there were so many other women who have my experience of walking out the single life over 30 at this very gathering? Including the mother-to-be. I had great fellowship with the women there and was blessed by their encouragement of my newfound Authorship. One woman told me I was actually the standard for doing what God has called and making things happen. I could not believe she would say such a thing, and advised my struggle is more about waiting on God and not running ahead of Him, rather then being productive for Him. I even got to participate in a prayer over another sister who was struggling with her current obstacles in life. I was the photographer and made sure to capture the events so the mom-to-be would have a few keepsakes. She was classy and regal and everything beautiful.
Afterward I had some needed “me time” before I geared up for my final social event of the day: my friend’s 40th b day party. I met him and guests at another favorite spot and enjoyed the appetizers, which were quite filling for me since I’m on a detox and my stomach has shrunk. Doesn’t take much to fill me up these days. I got to know his wife and her family more and then was caught up in conversation with a couple I knew. We had great dialogue, talked about their 6-month old, her 6-month b day party (she was a cupcake…adorable), the labor, and life having a baby. Then they wanted to know about me. I updated them on my career struggles and my book. They encouraged me in both. The wife then asked me if I were dating. I shared that I was not but that I finally understood why I was not. I shared that I was becoming a healthy person. I was learning what it meant to live as a whole person. I shared about generational curses being broken in my bloodline and a few of the relationships I’ve had to give up for that to happen. I did not share that really this is the first season in my life that I am walking in freedom from codependent relationships. But I did share that I knew for a fact that God was making me healthy and that was why I was single. She encouraged me in God’s promise for His best. But I think she and her hubby were simply amazed at my story. Maybe because it was so different then theirs. Maybe because it was something new they had never thought about, being a healthy single. Either way, it was good to finally have an answer for someone when they asked…”so…are you dating?” And now I can say, “no…but now I know why”.
I attended fellowship Sunday and met my mom afterward. We went to a wake for her friend’s father-in-law. After paying our respects we saw a movie we had both wanted to see. It was a really good movie and I was glad we went, even though we were rushing and missed the first 10 minutes.
And now it’s Sunday evening. I’m showered, my hair is in twists and I’m winding down for bed. Work is tomorrow and I’m trusting Elohim with each day. I’ve been working on stuff for the party and fluctuate between freaking out about how much money I’m spending and being excited about how fabulous it’s going to be. I have no idea what’s in store for 32. But I do believe the Lord is calling me to celebrate the work He has done in the area of men and relationships in my life at this time. I know that my book is fruit from this journey and He gets all the glory for helping me to keep overcoming where I am weak.
Here are a few random selfies of me, just because…
SHALOM
Lovely read. Indeed, all happens in His time! And you don’t look a day over 20! Happy 32 when it comes.
Lol i def feel it!! Tx 😉
I love this statement: “I shared that I was becoming a healthy person.” I feel like I am on the same journey. In the past, I’ve obsessed way too much about wanting God to bring me a husband. Now, it is about getting closer to Him, getting emotionally healthy, and discerning His plans for me.
Yes! I still struggle with obsessing lol but now I have more understanding of the purpose of singleness. It really is time to become a better you. Once marriage and family hits it will be all about them…