I find myself being ministered to through love music. Not music necessarily written for worshipping the Most High. But music that exudes intimacy, passion, and love. These qualities are the essence of intimacy with Christ. And so I can’t help but think of Him when I hear these songs. I feel His Spirit drawing me into a deeper place of intimacy. Part of me follows His lead, while the other part holds back. Fear rises up and I wonder, “If I give You my all, does that mean I won’t get these other desires of my heart met? Does that mean if my focus is off those things and fully on You, then I will be fully satisfied in You and won’t desire those things anymore?”
Listening to this music awakens me to His love in a way I haven’t been awakened before. I examine aspects of my life and realize the people He has placed in my community exude this same love towards me. He makes it clear to me that He has purposefully chosen to ooze out His love through these people.
God. Is. LOVE.
And He desires oneness with His people. It is not enough for us to be in the same home with Him, or even in the same room. He wants to be in the same bed.
I was listening to a radio show yesterday and they were discussing the fact that the book of Songs of Solomon is rarely preached over the pulpit. It seems using God and sex in the same sentence makes people uncomfortable. Even in the body of Christ. It sounds rather silly when you think about it, seeing as how God created sex. Can I say that again?
God created sex.
But our culture has done with sex what it has done with so many other things…taken God out and distorted its true meaning. Sadly the church has done a similar thing.
I don’t have the fullness of what sex really means and what this intimacy I feel His Spirit drawing me into fully entails. I only know that He jealously yearns for it (intimacy) and for me. And somewhere in the midst of all of these distractions my heart is battling against every day, I yearn for it as well. I yearn for Him as well.
SHALOM
7-19-14
I just wanted to update this post. The same evening of the day I wrote it (7-18-14) I heard a sermon preached from the book of Songs of Solomon and was so encouraged by it, I just had to share :-).
“Going Public with My Praise” http://www.moodyradio.org/brd_ProgramArchive.aspx?id=100744
Get Out Of My Head!!! Age is just a number b/c, yesterday was a day that my mature hormones were in rare form. The feelings were so strong I thought of calling my ex. Father thank you for Intercessors!!! Sent from Huawei Mobile
Praying for u! The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak!